Daydreaming Diaries

Don't you know those days on which nothing works the way you want it to? Those days you planned to do a lot of things but somehow you're just too unmotivated for doing anything at all? Those days you realize you don't look the way you want yourself to look like by looking into the mirror in the morning or by crossing your room?
Well, today's one of these days. Not only today - already a whole week passed by like this.

Got up in the morning, washed my face, looked into the mirror and realized that neither my hair nor my face is the way I'd like it to be. I just don't know what to do with my hair. I want to let it grow more longer, but it always looks that ... dead. Just not shinny nor alive at all. Furthermore I don't know what to do about its structure. should I try curling my hair?

Regarding my face, I'm just that unskilled in putting on make up. I don't even know what I need or should use. haha. Well, I never put on make up that much during my high school time nor during my stay in Japan since my boyfriend always said he didn't like it. Well, may I try to buy some cheap and easy-to-use products for the beginning. Or I better just ask someone who is experienced.

And regarding looking into the mirror realizing that this, this, that and that part of your body doesn't look the way you want it too - well, this is something every female out on this world should understand or has realized at least once in her life I think. Just looking at those 'perfect' built model bodies and faces, cover images of magazines or realizing the dress you just bought doesn't look the same like on the model, who wore it on the shop page or in the catalogue. Isn't it like this?

I was told a hundred or thousands times to become like myself more, but how do you do this, if you're confrated with so many 'perfect' seeming girls and women guys are starring at all the time... Whatever.
I always was a very shy girl without that much confidence, but it it changed. I'm still shy and scared of being alone somewhere with foreigners, still out of enough self-confidence and still unsure about certain things, but my stay in Japan with all those fears, hard times and cried tears influenced my life and way of thinking in a good way I think and I'm glad I did this even times were and are still tough.

Well, so far for today. Just some radom thoughts I can't stop thinking about lately.